I apologize in advance if this is in the wrong place....
So I just got rejected today from the Boston Conservatory. I applied for their masters program in multiple woodwinds (oboe, bassoon, flute).
Anyway I was in love with this school and thought it was a match school for me. It wasn't a top-tier conservatory as far as instrumental music goes, but it was better than the state school I'm currently at and anyway I thought it would be okay for me. I'd be considered a little bit behind as far as being an oboe performance major goes (but I started later in life and...long story but I'm good. Not "the best of the best" but good), but I'm well-rounded and versed in all three instruments and my auditions went way better than every other school I applied at, so I was really optimistic. I even had a trial lesson with one of the oboe professors there, and I liked her a lot.
I've heard so many people tell me that their instrumental music program is not as competitive as their other programs (MT, dance) and that I must have done REALLY terribly to not get accepted or even waitlisted, especially since I play two "unusual" instruments. (I didn't personally think the oboe/bassoon thing would matter, since this is a conservatory after all).
So I've basically spent the whole day crying and I don't know what to do with myself because if I couldn't get in there, then what future could I possibly have in music? I'm super discouraged, I applied to other schools but this is the only school I wanted to go to and the only one I applied to for multiple woodwinds. Should I consider switching careers before I get even deeper and waste more money? My depression is full force today.... :((
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